“젊은날의 연가”




"젊은날의연가"
친구야!너의영구귀국한것을진심으로환영하고축하해!
그동안의...너의수고와노력이...세상빛을보기시작한것...
그사이...세월이참많이흘러갔네...
너와나의만남도...거의24년이다되어가는구나...
이번에귀국하면서...
전에도...너는너의모교에서일을하고싶어했었는데...네가원했던...모교에서강의맡게된것...TV에MC로...고정프로그램을맡게된것...너의뒤늦은화려한결혼!모두모두축하해!현재...우리의황무지나마찬가지인그분야에서...독보적인위치에서있는...너를보니자랑스럽구나!그리고...비록늦은인사지만...진심으로너의결혼을축하한다!미모의첼리스트와의결혼...많이늦은결혼이지만...늦은만큼더행복하길바란다!이제서야...나는나의마음이가벼워졌어...그동안...그긴세월을지내오는동안...마음한구석에는...언제나너에게...못다한...이야기가자리잡고있었는데...이젠모두다...가뿐히날려보낼래...하나도남김없이모두다...너에게...마지막으로받은편지...새하얀편지봉투안에...행운의네잎클로우버가들어있었지...아무런...말한마디없는...백지상태로말이지...지금도...너의마지막선물...그행운의...네잎클로우버를...고이간직하고있어...그편지를전해주곤...그길로...너는떠나버렸지...그것이...내가본...너의마지막모습이었지...그렇게...너는아무말도하지못한채...바보처럼떠나버렸지...긴세월...그동안머나먼타국에서...너는...오로지공부에만열중했었고...나는...내게정해진순서대로...나의길을갈수밖에없었지...그리고는우리들앞에...이렇게좋은모습으로돌아왔구나...이렇게...우리에게돌아와주어서고맙다...그리고미안해...미안하다...그때는...너를위한최선의방법...너를위한...나의진정한마음이었다는것...그런데...왜이렇게자꾸만나의마음이아려올까...너의바보같은마음...변하지않은여전한너의모습...그동안...세월이...얼마나많이흘렀는데도...아직도너는...예전의그모습그대로인걸...여전히...듣기좋은너의목소리...맑은눈빛...해맑은만년미소년의모습을...그대로가지고있는걸...달라진점이있다면...전엔안경을쓰지않았었는데...안경을착용한것과...체격이커진것을제외하곤...다예전의...모습그대로인걸...그동안...너에게미안했던마음...너를그렇게...떠나보낼수밖에없었던것...그때그상황을...나를이해해주길바래...아무런말도하지못했던것...도저히이해되지않았던...이유같지않았던이유...다...너를...아니우리서로를위해서였다는것을...아직도...이렇게나의마음속에...영원한바보로...자리잡고있는너인데...이제는...서로편해질때도되지않았니...친구야너생각나니...이제는나도...세월과나이를많이먹었나봐...너의소식을듣고...지난옛일을...자주떠올리는것을보니...그어느젊은날...너의학교축제때...내가행사프로그램에참가해...그날...너희학교...전체의MVP로뽑혔던것...그축제의날...너의학교에서스포트라이트를받았을때...너의눈부시게...환한미소짓던너의모습...동아리모임때불참하고...너와함께...태릉스케이트장에서스케이팅하고왔을때...온학교에서...어떻게알았는지...소문이파다하게퍼졌던일...나중에알고보니...저녁9시뉴스의...일기예보의코너에서...카메라가따라와...너와나의...스케이팅하는모습이...클로즈업되어...몇분간화면에계속나왔던일...그사실을...뒤늦게알고나서...얼마나무안했던지...밤새...그일로고민했었던일...어느겨울날...봉사활동나갔을때...봉사활동하던도중에...갑자기...고열이나서아파하던나를위해...오지에서...약국찾기도힘들었을텐데...어디에서...어떻게...약을지워왔는지...깜깜해져서야...지친모습으로...우리모두앞에...빙그레웃으며...돌아왔었던너의모습...언제나...내옆에서그림자처럼...여린...나를보살펴주었던너...늘한결같은모습으로...안녕!깍쟁이공주님!이라고날불렀을때...내가너를...섬개구리왕자라고놀렸던것...그시절그추억...함께한그시간들을...내가...어떻게다잊을수가있겠니...이렇게...세월이많이흘렀는데도...여전히...나의기억속에자리잡고있는것을...그래...너는나의젊은날의초상...나에게있어...너는영원한바보...섬개구리왕자일뿐이야...나역시...너에게있어서는...헛똑똑이깍쟁이공주일뿐이었겠지만...안녕!섬개구리왕자님!이렇게...수많은세월을보내고나니...그렇게도그립던...너를만나게되는구나...지금은...화면속의너의모습을보고있어...네가맡은프로그램을...그런데...왜이렇게허허로운지...오늘멜랑코리해진것...다너때문이다...다음...정규모임땐나를초대해라...너의마음이편해져...자유로워질때까지...언제까지...내가더기다려야하겠니...다른친구로부터...너의소식을듣고싶진않구나...너의...예쁜신부도소개시켜주고...그래야하지않겠니...참잘됐다...클래식을좋아하는너였는데...첼리스트인와이프가...연주해주는음악을듣는다면행복해질것같아...너의와이프...정기연주회때도초대해라...친구야...나를아직도미워하고있진않겠지...네가초대할때까지...그시간이얼마나걸릴지는모르겠지만...다음에는...우리서로웃는모습으로만나자!그긴세월이궁금하지않니...그동안나의소식을전해들었겠지만...나의영원한바보인섬개구리왕자님!너의귀국과뒤늦은화려한결혼과일과성공!명예!이세상그누구보다더많이많이축하해!너의기쁨은곧나의기쁨!좋은소식을들으니참으로나는기뻐!"너의각고의노력으로얻은오늘의영광!진심으로...멀리서나마축하하며...너의앞날에...건강과영예가함께하기를...뜻깊은오늘...그어느때보다도아름다운날이되기를...귀국후...첫발내딛는...오늘을축하하며...앞날의...정진과행운이함께하기를바란다!"젊은날...너의단짝친구였던깍쟁이공주가..."Whatapleasantsurprise!Ihopethingswillturnoutwellforyou~~~!"

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