1.대학로에도아프리카박물관이있다.

별로아는사람이없어서소개를겸한글하나올려본다
규모가크지않는개인이운영하는곳이지싶다

근처에갔다가혹시자투리시간나면한번쯤들러보시라는의도로
아프리카를여행하면서규모가큰박물관을많이접해본적이있어썩맘에차진않아도

가면들도제법있고5회전시회장소가마침대학로라왔다갔다할때였다.

타피스트리에들어갈아프리카전통문양을찾으러라도일부러들리곤했다.
가면을볼때마다사람들에게는몇개의가면들이있을까란생각을하며…
글을보면마음이보인다지만그사람의모두는아닐것이다.
글과현실과같이생각하면큰오산이란말을하는작가들도있더라만
미화된부분만보고열망하는경우가더많은건아닐까

가장가까운배우자나나쁜습관까지잘알고있을가족이나

치부까지알고있는친지들한테는어떤모습으로비춰지는지…
과시욕노출증관음증도일종의가면은아닐까?
물론가면이다나쁘다는의미는아니다
복잡다단한현실생활을하자면상황에따라하얀거짓말식가면도필요할터

 

 

2.인사동이야기

 

 

<img src=””/><img src=””/><p align=”center”><p align=”center”><font color=”#d57e6e”><p align=”left”><fontcolor=”#d57e6e”>古貫堂강인순(89세)용목나비동상감이층농.20062.23~3.7인사동갤러리라메르전시작품<p align=”left”><fontcolor=”#d57e6e”><p align=”center”><font color=”#d57e6e”><a href=”http://www.catholictimes.org/news/news_view.cath?seq=31079&”><fontcolor=”#d57e6e”><–출처<palign=”center”><palign=”left”>
인사동엘매일매일출,퇴근했던적이있었다.화랑을오랫동안경영해온<palign=”left”>친정고모님(이미지참조…89세인줄이거올리면서알았다…;;)이근몇년동안연구한<p align=”left”>전통목공예조선조가구의대를나에게물려주고싶은욕심과나또한뭔가뜻있는<p align=”left”>일을하고싶은마음과맞물려서였지만서너번의전시회를도와드리면서준비하는동안<p align=”left”>-전문용어로야큐레이터지만나에겐감히(?)라는표현이앞서서-그림액자에비해덩치도큰가구전시회…<p align=”left”>재료선택에서부터까다로운공정을거쳐완성되는어려움보다힘들었던’그외의것들’을견디지못하고<p align=”left”>고모님한테는힘겹게지켜온외길인생에존경심만표하고물러나버렸다.
살아가면서몇번이나’그외의것’들에게진저리를쳤던가?
‘그외의것’들을조화롭게행하지못해서나의인생은실패가아니었을까
꿈만꾸는게모두가아닐텐데…그런생각을많이도하던시기였다.

 

….중략……………….

 

비가오지는않았지만어딘지비냄새가스며있는듯한늦은오후에어떤40대주부가전시장에들어섰다.

오랜시간여러작품들을꼼꼼히구경하고카타로그도보고난후

전시장에없는작품들까지엄청나게주문을하는것이었다.
참고로고모님의작품값만만치않다.

 

우리는약간의아해하면서도,

‘저-쪽에남농작품의액자가손상되서모모일찾으러올때같이오겠다’며

정식계약은그때하고오늘은구두로만하겠다는너무나도구체적인설명에

진실이보이는것같아믿고말았다.아니믿고싶었을것이다

 

대박이터지려나…

큰기대를했다는걸숨길수없을정도로비수기인여름철이었기때문에…

 

약속한모모일,전화한통없었다.
역시짐작대로군…

씁쓸한맘을서로숨기고포기했는데오후늦게전화가,

그것도다급하게왔다고남자직원인이부장이설명했다.
40대그여자가오는중에교통사고가나서기사가파출소로갔기때문에며칠미루라고…
또며칠이지났다.
소식은역시나없었다.
하궁금하고나의장난끼내지는’호기심천국’도발동해서인사동네거리에서

경인미술관가는방향2층에있는남농작품만전문으로취급하는화랑을찾아갔다.

얼마전에남농액자맡긴40대여자가있었냐며자초지종을관장님께설명하자

“아그여자요?우리도몇번당했지요.우울증환자랍니다….흐린날이나비오는날은조심하셔야합니다.”
그때우리에게는그사건이’첫경험’이었다.
인사동주변에는그런우울증환자가많다고

이웃해있던화랑사장님이많은얘기를해주신기억이난다.

 

마당개풍월정도로흘려들은정보를비교적많이아는이유도

인사동엘잠시머문고마운시절이있어서였고
그시절은내인생에서아끼고싶은어느한부분이었지싶다.

전시장을사랑방처럼찾아오는예술가들도많이만나던시기였다.

틈만나면인사동골목을찾아다니며정도들었고남다른애착을많이가지게도되었다.

 

……중략….

그이후두어번정도더그여자를닮은또다른우울증환자의여인들을만났는데
나는그때마다대단히친절하게그분들을대한기억이난다.
다시는모습을비추지않을것을슬프게도알아버렸지만

 

 

3.추장가면절반…

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애초에계획도없었던화려한장식을한추장의가면을딱절반만

에프리케(applique)로구성해넣고보다와연결된부분은퀼팅으로처리했다.
오늘바인딩처리까지마친타피스트리한점을완전히끝마쳤다.

한여름에도선풍기바람한번못쐬면서거실에다한장한장늘어놓고

초긴장상태로조심조심…한패턴이끝날때까지조각이뒤바뀌지않게

번호를매겨가며자리도못옮기며이어온피를말릴것같은조각,조각들이다.
설명안하면아무도모르는나혼자만알수있는별도심고물위에비치는노을도집어넣었다.

실,바늘,골무같은도구의차원으로흐르는음악까지도심어넣고싶었다하면

지나친욕심이고오만이다싶어조심스럽지만

대학로에서열릴5회전시회정경을그려보며

오래전인사동에서만난우울증에빠진40대여인을왜떠올렸을까
그여자도나도우울증에빠진또다른*노마데스몬드는아닐까
아참좋은이소리,

잘못하면놓칠수도있는,

11초간격으로미세하게들리는…

홈주인은무슨의도로이소리를하필11초간격으로새겼을까..아니면실수로들어간잡음일까?
가을과겨울의환승역같은막바지,11월사이로햇빛이”짜앙”하고내려째는듯한이소리…소리…
사족:
참고로이글은5회전시회를앞둔어느날모홈에서배경화면에심어놓은슈벨트의즉흥곡을들으면서썼던글입니다

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